rain rain rain! Its been so rainy here lately! and i've been very busy...so that rain is just obnoxious! its weeks like these i think i should invest in some cute rain boots! i've just been going non-stop with work lately! this past Tuesday was 11 months for Joel and i! we're almost at a year!! :) Yay! he's been kind of stressed with school lately though, and i haven't really been helping! i just tend to frustrate him! so i'm working on really just being very patient with him and loving him enough to leave him alone for a bit! lol! which is really hard to do when all i want is to spend my free time with him! between principles of accounting and essays he's being stretched a little bit! i'm so so glad he's taking classes this semster though! I've seen God grow Joel in so many ways since we started dating! a year ago when we were just hanging out as friends, there were areas that he just hadn't seemed to grow up in, and this past year i've seen Joel mature and grow into a man that i can wait to give my life to! the other night, we had a discussion...after i pushed him too far; he told me that it really bothers him that i'm not patient, and tend to snap at him over small things. he comment to me was "love me enough to let me make a mistake!" it broke my heart because i realized he was right; i hold him up to standards i have set in my mind and when he slips the slightest bit, i just fall apart! i have really been praying the past couple of days that God would change that heart attitude and give me one of love and patience! (can you tell i'm really struggling with patience!) and not even just with joel! i love my roommate! she's a great girl, but she doesn't like to do dishes - at least that's what i assume since she usually just leaves 'em in the sink dirty! most the time, she leaves the kitchen dirty (just leaves wrappers out on the counter, dishes in the sink, pots on the stove, etc) and it frustrates me to no end! but i really don't need to let that get to me! its ok...its just a kitchen and i can clean it just as easily as she can! anyways, all that to say, please pray that i would grow in patience and love towards those i see and am around on a daily basis! i love Joel and the last thing i want to do is push him away because i require perfection - because not even i am perfect!
hope you're all doing well! and have a great weekend!
love ya,
Meg
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